Reclaiming The Soul From Gabi

Reclaiming the Soul from Gabi

The Overt Narcissist and Romantic Partner

When it comes to a romantic relationship with a Narcissist, they are notorious for adopting multiple sexual identities, sexual abuse, infidelity, and obsessive projection of infidelity onto their partners.

Sex is both erotic and sacred and it is one of the most tangible ways we can explore our power and divinity as human beings. This unfortunately also makes it an ideal place of attack for someone who wishes to rob us of our power and control our own perception of self.

A healthy sexual connection with someone can clear us of fear and root us back into our own infinite connection to Source. But if it is imbalanced, it can drain us and have us feeling uprooted. We may then begin reaching toward that person or another partner to regain the connection we actually lost with ourselves.

When we are searching outside ourselves to fill something inside us, things can get misaligned. If we go looking for a connection with someone else in order to feel love or in other words find our connection with Source, we can end up believing that person themselves holds our connection to our own divinity rather than finding it within ourselves. This can be incredibly heartbreaking because we may then subconsciously believe that our worthiness of love, and connection to God can be revoked by someone else at any time.

This is why these relationships are often described as a soul rape.  It can feel like the ultimate abandonment and betrayal.

We can fall into deep states of despair and shame, not clearly looking at the situation for what it is, but instead begging for forgiveness and looking for ways we can earn our way back to deserving that love and connection again.

This is exactly the kind of raw and explosive emotion that Gabi was craving to feel and witness her entire life, and she studied and practiced for quite some time how to create it and bring it to the surface from everyone in her life.

She's a master at creating storylines of explosive obsession and desperation. Because she didn't experience actions of love and affection and emotion as a child, it's the only time Gabi feels she is truly living and connecting with others- through manipulation.

Her entire childhood Gabi knew both her parents dealt with deep depression. She may not have had the technical term for it, but she knew they always seemed numb. They never really had the love and affection to give her, they could only show it with money. The beautiful apartment she lives in downtown? They pay the rent and utilities. Her brand-new car? They bought that for her after her recent promotion.

Gabi never formed a deep bond with her parents. It was more of an agreement that they feed her, clothe her, and take care of her financially. This feeling of abandonment and being expendable became more and more toxic over time.

Throughout life, she's learned to push people to their limits and break them down, causing them to beg and plead and scream, passionately proving how much they care for her and need her.

Gabi wears whatever persona it takes to make her way into people's deepest and most vulnerable spaces, because that's where our primal emotions run deep. That's where she needs to attach in order to get the reactions she craves from people in her life.

As impossible as it may seem, she knows exactly what she's doing. She's well aware of the destruction and pain she causes, but it's completely justified in her world.

From an eternal victim's mentality, some of the worst evils can not only be committed without remorse, but they are seen as well-deserved. Serious head injuries aside, I don't believe the concept that some people are just completely incapable of feeling such emotions as remorse. I believe they've disconnected and gone into victimhood in such a way that they can no longer feel it for anyone but themselves.

Being numb of pain doesn't cause someone to commit heinous acts or maliciously wound another human being. But feeling eternally cheated? Desperately begging to retaliate and validate feelings of shame and hate towards one's self? That just might.

For the Narcissist, the more effect they feel they've had, the more emotion they can see someone emit, the better. 

Enter the Empath, right? Begging to no longer be told that our emotions are too much. It can feel like the perfect match.

Before we realize we are not here to heal the world by healing every individual we come in contact with one at a time, these types of romantic relationships can feel like we've finally found our soulmate. We can feel so alive because we feel like we're actually living our purpose and helping someone heal! Our powerful emotions are welcomed! Our depth of love and compassion isn't overwhelming for once! This must be it!

The overt narcissist will often put on a show of success and charisma to the world while strategically adopting a different persona as a fearful wounded child to us behind closed doors in order to form a quick bond of trust using fake vulnerability.

Just like Gabi went full speed ahead with the confessions of love, we can be bowled over with constant praise, sex, gifts, and statements like the following-

"You're the only person I've ever said these things to!"

"Everyone else has left me... I'm trusting you not to hurt me."

"I've never felt this way about anyone."

"You're so incredible... I can't believe you'd be with someone like me."

It's important to feel the odd weight of overly dramatic confessions of love and devotion that happen too quickly in a relationship.

Does it feel freeing and expansive? Or as if you're now responsible for someone else's happiness?

It shouldn't feel like we're taking on a responsibility when we fall in love, but in these situations, it usually does. This is why I think it can get tricky and feel like we've found our soulmate because it appears that we've found our purpose. But if you remember in the story, it was definitely Gabi's mission you were on the whole time.

When we no longer feel it is our purpose to heal others, we no longer get pulled in to playing anyone's savior. We no longer feel responsible for another adult which means it's no longer necessary to make excuses for their actions.

This makes it a hell of a lot easier to perceive who's truly looking to build a life with us, and who's looking to own us.